Reaching Reality

Yes! Weekend time!

Can’t wait to get my new camera so I can show you just how beautiful my life is everyday.

I realized how in love I am while playing soccer with 8 middle schoolers on this huge field while the sun was setting tonight.

And I saw that face come out of a little girl, that face that is like “I did it!, ME, ME, Me, Me, ME!!!”

That’s the best feeling in the world: Knowing that you made a connection with someone who will someday grow up and feel hopeless and sad. Because we all look back at those moments, when we connected with someone in that way and we felt LOVED, really loved….

and that’s what leads us to God, Love.

and if I can show that love, and be the vessel God moves through…

I am so blessed.

heisjealousforme:

God I didn’t want to. But I love you so much. And I want to do what you ask even when it kills me. Well, God, it’s freaking killing me. Please help me. I need you right now.

I need anything right now.

This hurts more than anything I could have ever imagined.

Please help me know I did the right thing.

Please bring me peace. Please.

I love You. So much.

Joy

Always how I feel when I do the same thing.

You will be affirmed in your decisions by the spirit of peace. It is hurting and hard regardless, but we are not called to live simply, and take the path of least resistance. We are called to live by his will, and be empty vessels.

Today was just phenomenal and long, long, long.

Without boring anyone, I had quite an interesting try at “Team Building” as I had aforementioned yesterday.The kids came to after school and signed in….snacked and then divided into clubs.

Thankfully I had won over a young girl with candy who came down to my room to make me look like I had some student participation. I started by setting the room up as a sort of maze. I moved chairs around and little bicycles and tissue boxes and chalk to apply a “mine field” affect for the students….(if there were any)…By the time I was done setting up, I had about 3 more kids. (Praise Him!) And by the time I had divided the teams I had 2 more, and then I lured 2 more young girls in with the allure of nerds and laffy taffy.

I seperated the teams and told them to lead their team member through the maze with only words, because she/he will be blindfolded.

Each team went really quickly with involvement by about 2 or 3 kids total, lasting almost 5 minutes total. So I decided that it was time to move on playing another indoor game, it went a little better but was just a little to slow of a group to spend so much time inside so I decided to play the outside game lemonade. You can look it up, it’s kind of a fun version of tag…which is all these kids really seemed to enjoy either way…

But Lemonade went on forever, it was awesome and more kids kept joining us. I was overjoyed. (YES! YES! YES! FINALLY…..INVOLVEMENT!)

By 5 O’ Clock which was homework time, I sat down and helped a few kids out with homework….Couldn’t remember how to do a diagram to faction out composite numbers…(haha) but finished the day, nonetheless, a little closer, and a little more confident with to and with this group.

Hallelujah, Praise Him!

I started reading The Shack and am already through the first 90 pages, within hours, I can’t put it down….(except to blog of course) and went and worked out…I’ve lost 2 pounds this week!

Things seem good, I am happy and I feel really LOVED.

Thank you JESUS from whom ALL blessings flow!